"O M G !!! Let me be me !! Let me do me !! I'm good !!! I can protect myself !!!!!!! Don't you trust me ??? I'm not stupid !! I'm not naive !!! I can do it !!!! Sheeeesssshhh! 😤"
Smh. That was me. 🙄 like yesterday 😐🙈. I've always been the youngest. Always been the littlest. Always been the baby girl. 👶🏾 Always been the precious cargo that everybody & they mama felt the need to make sure doesn't hurt myself... And while I thought it was a good thing when I was little... I grew up & it felt more & more like a JAIL CELL. 😐 But I honestly think it just dawned on me... 🙈 I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SPECIAL!!!! 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳 But not the normal special. Like, not just the diamond that should be locked up in the display case like all the others with the security alarm that someone can still break-in and get away with before getting caught... 😒 I'm in the private collection that only like two people know about and have the key to. 😳 Bruh... for the life of me, I couldn't understand that & I think it just clicked. My big brothers & my boyfriend are gonna have a ball with this one... because they always wondered why I resisted so hard. 🙄 I just always got so frustrated because it's like "Goodness, do you think I'm old enough to protect myself yet? Like, I'm grown guys..." 🤦🏾♀️ but the problem is that I didn't see myself the way they saw me... until literally, just now. I thought they looked at me and saw a 6-year-old... but that's the lie the enemy had me believing. Smh. The reality is actually that they look at me and see a legit princess... they see gold! 👸🏾 God looks at His children and sees GOLD! He sees His precious creation that He hand-made and uniquely crafted. 👸 Psalm 139:13-18 ERV says, “You formed the way I think and feel. You put me together in my mother’s womb. I praise You because You made me in such a wonderful way. I know how amazing that was! You could see my bones grow as my body took shape, hidden in my mother’s womb. You could see my body grow each passing day. You listed all my parts, and not one of them was missing. Your thoughts are beyond my understanding. They cannot be measured! If I could count them, they would be more than all the grains of sand. But when I finished, I would have just begun.” 😭 I mean... just soak that in... 😭😭😭 ugh. What I've finally learned is that value can be determined by the amount of protection on an object or person. For example... while Oprah may have two or three security details to escort her from place to place, President Obama has an entire fleet of security detail at every nook & cranny of his existence. 😐 Do you see what I mean? Of course President Obama could get a weapon and take classes to defend himself and his family in the time of need, buuuut... because of his value and worth... the protection has to supersede even what he can do in his own strength. Y'all I'm really gonna preach one day. 👀😂 I was told in a prophetic Word once that God had placed a huge wall in the spirit realm surrounding me and nothing would be able to get in or out. Trust me, I wasn't too fond of it at first, but as I study more and truly take a stand for healthy identity, worth, and value... I can totally see the difference! SideBar: If you haven't already heard... I launched my Image Artistry Company!! It's called " Your Own Uniqueness" and it is ALL about solidifying healthy identities!! (Read more HERE.) Anyways, my prayer is that you will begin to see the difference in yourself as well. YOU are SO valuable!!! YOU are God's masterpiece!!! And if you're a believer... YOU are God's prince or princess!! You are seated in heavenly places with Jesus !!! And you better believe He protects His children!!! You are ROYALTY!! You have the most security detail out of all the rest of Creation!!! God is watching over you HIMSELF!!! Matthew 10:29-31 ERV says, “When birds are sold, two small birds cost only a penny. But not even one of those little birds can die without your Father knowing it. God even knows how many hairs are on your head. So don’t be afraid. You are worth more than a whole flock of birds.” Sometimes... that manifests... as people that are close to you seeming to be overprotective, but they're not! They're just trying to show you the love of the Father. 😭 It's time to embrace it now... receive the love of your Father... your Heavenly Father... And if you happen to be a person that doesn't have other people in the natural guarding you... KNOW that God is ALWAYS protecting you, so do not resist Him... Read Psalm 91... trust me... I believe this is the song that led to my eye opening moment... take the next few minutes to just reflect, receive, and rest in the reckless love of God.
Reckless Love - Bethel Church Love you guys!
-Trin 💜